Winter

by Andrew Huang

supported by
/
  • Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

     $10 USD  or more

     

  • Full Digital Discography

    Get all 47 Andrew Huang releases available on Bandcamp and save 50%.

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of Alphabetical, Astrolabe, Cosmic, Friends, Interstellar, Pintxos, Hybrid, We Are One, and 39 more. , and , .

     $142 USD or more (50% OFF)

     

1.
02:24
2.
3.
03:21
4.
5.
6.
03:38
7.
01:56
8.
02:11
9.
04:09
10.
03:38
11.
02:33
12.
03:50
13.
03:42
14.
15.
06:25
16.
04:19

about

Where AUTUMN's overarching theme was of things changing and dying and slipping away, WINTER meditates on the finality of endings and what must be done beyond them. Every song is very direct in its relationship - to a past love, to a friend, to a daughter, to nature, to self, to god - and every song is a struggle with the pains of life that seem inescapable, the ones in which it is hardest to remember that eventually, with time, you might be able to move on. But you also might not.

credits

released February 27, 2014

Written, recorded and produced by Andrew Huang.
Additional recording on 2 by Chris Graham.
Additional recording on 10 by Rob Scallon and Jae Chong.
Words on 5 by E. E. Cummings.
Artwork by Dylan Royal.

tags

license

all rights reserved

feeds

feeds for this album, this artist

about

Andrew Huang Toronto, Ontario

Make music everywhere.

contact / help

Contact Andrew Huang

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Track Name: Winter
i have a long way to go
on my knees in the rain and snow
with fire and war eating up the life around me
but i don't hear them make a sound

we have a long history
and i don't think that she misses me
but every day i stop my trudging on
to write these little nothing songs of love, love
to write these little nothing songs of love

it's cold when she reaches out
a bony arm pushing through the ground
to grab my wrist and drag me down to see her
to ask if i could only free her
from the box i buried her in
i say it's not that i don't miss you
i just know that if i kiss you
you'll turn me into someone i don't want to be

it's hard to say goodbye so many times
it's hard to say goodbye so many times
don't make me do it again, please god
don't make me do it again
i have a long way to go
Track Name: Climate Change
climate change aside, you’re the worst thing that’s ever happened to me
lead this lonely life, full of yearning, and love thrown into the sea

but i confess, if not to you, i can only blame myself

underneath these eyes, every stream flows to meet your heart in deep
but the cold is wry, and my tears freeze and cocoon me in my sleep

but i digress, and i dream of waking up to you
Track Name: Agatha
she turns and walks away
i have nothing to say
give me a reason why it's like this
devotion becomes a snowing sky

what did you want from me
that i couldn't be
it was so easy to hold on

if you could see me now
always beneath a cloud
and as i just stand here in this dead town
the tendrils begin to pull away

what did you want from me
that i couldn't be
it was so easy to hold on

i'm giving up, i'm giving in
collapsing here on ice so thin
i'm letting go, i'm letting you win

because everything is changing
and there’s nothing else worth doing
because everything is changing

what did you want from me
that i couldn't be
it was so easy to hold on
Track Name: I Am Filled With The Deepest Loneliness
i am filled with the deepest loneliness
but i had to let you go
i am filled with the deepest loneliness
loneliness, only this loneliness

but don't turn back
i don't deserve that
my heart burns black for you

i am filled with the deepest loneliness
but i had to let you go
i am filled with the deepest loneliness
loneliness, only this loneliness

but don't come home
i'm running from hope
turn the sun cold
turn the sun cold and go

i had to let you go

you’re everywhere that i turn
(i'll never be with you)
and i know we can't go back
(i’ll never be with you)
well i’m trying, i’m crying
(i’ll never be with you)
babe, i live like i’m dying not to think of you

i am filled with the deepest loneliness
but i had to let you go
i am filled with the deepest loneliness
loneliness, only this loneliness
Track Name: Now I Lay (With Everywhere Around)
Now i lay(with everywhere around)
me(the great dim deep sound
of rain;and of always and of nowhere)and
what a gently welcoming darkestness—

now i lay me down(in a most steep
more than music)feeling that sunlight is
(life and day are)only loaned:whereas
night is given(night and death and the rain

are given;and given is how beautifully snow)

now i lay me down to dream of(nothing
i or any somebody or you
can begin to begin to imagine)

something which nobody may keep.
now i lay me down to dream of Spring
Track Name: Dreaming
dreaming of an escape
but in your fear you just wait
in your eyes, heaven burned
and you prayed it would return

(prayer)

you were wrong, you were wry
took so long just to lie

loom the winter
selfish choices
cheating lovers
distant voices
flash of jewellery
stymied temper
trap your echo
in a black december

had you on the phone
had you on the road
had you in the parking lot
had you in the bed
had you at the bar
had you at the coffee shop

tell me i'm dreaming
Track Name: Alexandra
20 years old, 120 pounds
but you had no trouble knocking five drinks down
alexandra

ritzy fur coat, thrift store shirt
and a pair of blues eyes that you know how to work
alexandra

we only had a night or two
but i let myself confide in you
oh alexandra

1,000 miles don’t feel so long
when i can still hear you sing those songs
alexandra

but now you’re driving some prairie path
and i’ve been trying to think how to bring you back to canada

we only had a night or two
but i let myself confide in you
over whiskey doubles, tried and true
the snow just coming lightly through
oh alexandra

now you’re back in nebraska
Track Name: Heartbreak
it's hard coming home to you
when you're not at home to come to
another late night
i turn off the light
alone at a quarter to two

it's hard getting money to last
when you like to spend it so fast
is it diamonds and cars
or dimes at the bar
that have drained all the mattress's mass

it's hard to tell you you're my sweet
when you're becoming friends with deceit
the heartbreak and harm
is part of your charm
the part of me that's incomplete
Track Name: Trees
way back when the forest was a tree
you knelt down and kissed us tenderly
and from the dew, far as the eye could see
grew the grapes, grew the grapes

a vintage sweeter than the finest flora
on a tongue so sharp, it came and almost tore you
and in the place that we now know as california
we fell asleep, fell asleep

mother, were you weeping when the sun went down?
mother, did you hold us in your arms?
are we sorry enough?

we used the sun and starlight as a tent
the legends and inventions came and went
a hundred thousand years were scored and spent
digging graves, digging graves

if we dreamt, we only dreamt serenely
but when we woke, the sound was all machinery
and everybody made it look so easy
to be calm, to be calm

mother, were you weeping when the sun went down?
mother, did you hold us in your arms?
mother, will you show us how to mend the scraps of this bridal gown?

pour your wine on your tablecloths and clothes
raise a glass for our glorious, scoffing toast
here's one for the jowls of our host
we'll let her weep, let her weep
Track Name: Want
o, well i wanted you, yeah i wanted you
Track Name: Her Majesty
when we agreed to be in love
i'd hoped we'd grow, keep growing up

you held my hand
you held my hand
you held my hand
you held my hand

mast raised sideways, we faced the sea
this wartime shoreline took mine from me

you held my hand
you held my hand
you held my hand
you held my hand
Track Name: Oxana
if she ever comes back to me
back home from the factory
he's making her work now

it can never be alright
she was the only light

but these kids, they grow up
make choices, and so what
i've lost my daughter
to these callous wolves

it can never be alright
she was the only light

it can never be the same again
i'm just waiting for this day to end
i'm saying it's too bad i let her run so free

oh but these kids, they get old
and their plans, they turn cold
i've lost my daughter
to these frigid souls

it can never be alright
she was the only light
Track Name: Surrender
i don't even remember your face
the toil of my heart such a waste
i'm searching all over the place
for your remains

a shred of ineffable here
the smell of your neckline and fear
but nothing is as it appears
except for your pain

'cause there were problems
at the bottom
of the time we called autumn
the time that we loved

all the same, i surrender

i can't say i've left you alone
though i'm never leaving my home
your heart lives inside of my bones
your heart is a sham

pinch me, i'll wake up again
trembling here in the glen
i'm taking you right to the end
and isn't it grand

there were problems
at the bottom
of the time we called autumn
the time that we loved

all the same, i surrender

baby, i'm doing the things you made me
while everyone tries to take these auroras down
so say goodbye to sunlight and all of the things you've done right
i'm falling with the flags

love, all the same, i surrender
Track Name: I Still Feel It
the bottle’s moved from the shelf to my desk
i don’t take rocks anymore, but you could probably guess

but i still feel it
no matter many drinks
i still feel it, i still feel it

they said take up a hobby, so i stare at these walls
they said time heals all wounds, so i let it crawl

but i still feel it
no matter how high i get
i still feel it, i still feel it

you and i had a long time in the sun
you and i had it all
you and i had a long time in the sun
now every day i watch it fall

take me back to those golden days
when across every table i would see your face
well i don’t weep anymore and i no longer wait

but i still feel it, lord i still feel it
oh i still feel it, i still feel it
Track Name: Amen
the hearts and knees are worn so thin
the scarves and jackets too
our eyes are closed to be opened
the backs of blindfolds bruised
your wallet's lost its minted shine
your lips have waited pursed
we taste the rain instead of wine
and only feel more thirst

well, amen to that, amen to that
say when to clap our hands and when to cry
and we'll say amen and we'll say amen to that
and we'll say amen and we'll say amen

the window's cracked, the door's ajar
the children's mouths are fed
a few worn sandals travel far
the widow makes her bed
it's only dusk, we say at dawn
with hands up, lifted high
the air is our redemption song
we fill our lungs with skies

and amen to that, amen to that
say when to clap our hands and when to cry
and we'll say amen and we'll say amen to that
and we'll say amen and we'll say amen

the silence has you chasing scars
and all the love you lack
the tears you weep are shooting stars
and you can't bring him back

give me those old stories
one by one
it goes oh, oh, oh

well, amen to that, amen to that
say when to clap our hands and when to cry
Track Name: Victoria
off-white dress from bangladesh
i get lost against your flesh

wounds may heal and memories fade
but all that's real in love is oft betrayed

what i feel about you is wrong
but i'll still keep singing my song
until you're singing along

you feel like home when i'm alone
and when you're here you're all i know

brazen smile and blackened eyes
it takes a while to truly believe inside

that what i feel about you is wrong
but i'll still keep singing my song
until you're singing along

i get so lost